The half bottle of gin sitting there untouched is a very good detail. And wanting the thing you'd substituted the alcohol for is better put than anything I managed in the entire piece.
In the first summer of my transition I had the most appalling MH crash. Spent most of the summer drifting in and out SI. Then I had a bike accident (sober but not in my right mind)
I empathise. I stopped overnight when I came out and read on the insert with the antidepressants "do not drink alcohol".
I wanted something more than the alcohol, I wanted the thing for which I had substituted alcohol.
I still have a ½ bottle of gin and several bottles of whiskey that I will never drink.
And I do not miss it.
The half bottle of gin sitting there untouched is a very good detail. And wanting the thing you'd substituted the alcohol for is better put than anything I managed in the entire piece.
In the first summer of my transition I had the most appalling MH crash. Spent most of the summer drifting in and out SI. Then I had a bike accident (sober but not in my right mind)
Stopped immediately
Coming up to 5 years now
Don’t miss it at all x
That's a horrible summer to have come through and I'm very glad you did. Five years is not nothing. Thank you for telling me x